7:39 Forever

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As Victoria grew, Kyndall spent all her time with her. She wanted to make sure that her daughter knew how much her mother loved her. Not once did Kyndall ever regret her decision to have her daughter. The little girl was her entire world at the moment.

She watched as she took her first wobbly steps towards her mother and caught her into her arms with a big hug. “Such a big girl. Mama’s proud of you.”

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She smiled when the little girl wrapped her short pudgy arms around her. “Your daddy would be proud of you too. You will have to show him how much of a big girl you are when he comes to see you this weekend.”

Cason had kept his promise that he would stay in their lives while he was finishing school. He visited every weekend and any other time that he could. If he had a game, he would come as soon as he was free to. Both Kyndall and Victoria loved his visits.

When he hadn’t answered her calls, she had worried that he had changed his mind, but that worry was relieved when he did call her back. He had been on a plane heading to one of their games and hadn’t been able to call. He called as soon as the plane landed. Since then, she had a copy of his game schedule so she would know when he was away and when it would be okay to call him.

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She carried Victoria downstairs to get her ready for their daily walk to the park. They had developed a routine that they stuck to every day when the weather allowed it. Victoria would wake up and they would spend the mornings just cuddling together for awhile before breakfast. Then they would call Cason and talk to him on video chat while he got ready for his classes. 

Campbell smiled when he saw his girls. “Did you two have a nice nap?”

Kyndall put Victoria down and smiled when she slowly stumbled her way over to her grandparents. The smile she saw on her dad’s face as he watched his granddaughter starting to walk made her smile.

“We did. She woke up about half an hour ago and laid there quietly waiting for me to wake up.”

“Your grandma brought over some new books for Victoria. She was hoping to see her, but didn’t want to wake the two of you. She said she will come back this evening after dinner.”

Kyndall nodded and looked through the books. She smiled when she saw one that she had enjoyed as a little girl. “Victoria, do you want Mommy to read you a book before we go to the park?”

She smiled as the little girl clapped her hands in response. She loved to be read to almost as much as she loved to play at the park.

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Kyndall sat down so she was closer to her daughter’s level and opened the book. She read her the story about the little  puppy with spots who had gotten separated from his brothers and sisters and got lost after he took his time going home.  She showed Victoria the pictures as she read the story to her. 

When the story was finished and she closed the book she saw the little girl smiling and already heading for  the door. She smiled and stood up.

“You need to wait for me, little stinker.”

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At the park, Kyndall watched Victoria playing in the ball pitt. It was always the first stop for the little girl before she would run through the tunnels. Kyndall always stayed where she could see her daughter and where Victoria could see her. The one time that she had sat down and Victoria lost sight of her for just a few seconds, the little girl had started crying.

Kyndall smiled as she watched her daughter laughing and playing. She was glad she was a happy little girl and didn’t have to worry about the things that went through her mind every day. She was enjoying herself and that was what mattered the most to Kyndall. She wanted her daughter to be happy and not have to worry about anything.

7:38 Higher Love

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The lawyer sat watching the young woman as she explained why she was there. This wasn’t something she typically heard of from someone this young. 

“You are certain that this is what you want to do? The father does not want to take responsibility of your daughter?”

As much as Kyndall wished that there was another option, this was their only one. At least the only one that would give Victoria the life she deserved.

“We want to do this. It is what we feel we need to do in order to protect our daughter.”

“You want to give custody to your parents?”

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Kyndall wanted to say no. She wanted to say that she wanted to live to see her daughter grow up and have her own family. She wanted to say to just forget this entiree meeting, but she couldn’t.

“Yes. Only until Cason finishes school though. Then they can decide from there who Victoria will live with. “

The laywer didn’t agree, but it wasn’t her choice to make. If it was, the father would be taking care of his daughter.

“I will get the paperwork ready and send it to you. I need the information of the father so I can also send the paperwork to him. He’ll need to sign everything and send it back.”

Kyndall nodded and wrote down the information for her. She handed the paper to the lawyer before getting up to head home.

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Kyndall held her daughter in her arms, cuddling her close. It was hard being close to Victoria and knowing her time with her was limited. She wanted to spend as much time as possible with her though. She needed to fit an entire lifetime into what time she had.

“Mommy did something today that is going to make sure that you will always be safe, taken care of, and loved. I hope that when you are old enough you will understand why your Mommy and Daddy felt that we had to do this for you.”

She kissed her daughter’s forehead and laid her back in the bed. “We both love you very much, little princess. We’ll do whatever we have to do to give you the life that you deserve to have.

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She went into her bedroom next door and called Cason. She frowned when she got his voicemail knowing that his classes and practice would be over. She wondered where he was and why he wasn’t answering his phone. She left him a voice mail asking him to call her as soon as he was able to. She hoped it would be soon. She was exhausted and wanted to sleep.

7:37 Don’t Go Breaking My Heart

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Cason listened to Kyndall as they talked about their daughter and what they had decided would be the best for her. It was not an easy choice for either of them to make, but they both knew that in the end, it would be good for Victoria.

“I will talk to the lawyer tomorrow and get things taken care of. “

Cason could see in her eyes that this wasn’t what she had hoped for when they started this conversation. He hated that she was hurting, but he also knew that she understood why this was the only choice they truly had.

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“Kyndall, please don’t be upset with me. This isn’t easy for me either. That is our little girl…our daughter.”

Kyndall nodded and wiped at a tear on her cheek. “I know. I just wish we didn’t have to do this.”

He pulled her closer against him and kissed her forehead. “So do I. It’s going to be hard as fuck for me to sign those papers. I didn’t expect to love her as much as I do.”

Kyndall gave a little smile as she listened to him. “She does seem to be super cute. I think she knows it and uses it against us.”

As if Victoria knew they were talking about her, she started to cry in the room next door. Cason got up and smiled. “Let me take care of her this t ime.”

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Kyndall nodded and gave him a few minutes alone with their daughter before she followed. It broke her heart when she saw him cuddling Victoria and hearing what he was saying to her. She stayed back a bit so she wouldn’t interrupt him.

Cason held his daughter and looked down at her sweet, innocent face. “I want you to never forget that Daddy loves you.”

He laid Victoria back in her bed and turned seeing Kyndall. “I should probably go. I need to pack my things before I leave.”

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Kyndall walked outside with Cason. She didn’t want him to leave, but she knew that he needed to get back to school. “Drive safely.”

He turned and looked at her when he heard her voice. “Please don’t cry, Kyndall.” He pulled her into his arms and held her close to him.”It kills me to see you cry. Please tell me how to make this better. I’ll do anything.”

She shook her head as she clung to him. “I wish there was something you could do. I wish there was something anybody could do.”

He looked at her and wiped a tear from her cheek. “I’ll stay if you want me to.”

She looked up at him giving a tiny smile. “I know you would. I need you to finish school though. That is what is important right now. That is what Victoria needs you to do.”

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He kissed her softly. “I love you, Kyndall. I love both of my girls.”

She nodded her head. “I know. We both do.” 

She started to step back from him, but he didn’t let her go. “You need to get going, Cason.”

“A few more minutes won’t hurt anything.”

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She smiled and wrapped her arms around him hugging him. “I’m going to miss you.”

“I’ll miss you too. I’ll see you at spring break.” It felt like it would be forever before he saw her again. He wasn’t sure he would be able to stay away that long.

“Let me know what the lawyer says. I can make the trip back to sign the papers if I need to.” He saw the pain return to her eyes. “Hey. Everything is going to be okay. It’s only a temporary situation.”

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He gave her another soft kiss before he stepped away. “I’ll call you when I get back to Britechester.” He reached out and softly caressed her cheek again. “I love you, Kyndall.”

She watched as he turned and walked away. She wanted to call him back and beg him to stay, but she knew that their daughter’s future depended on him returning to school and finishing. It would only be two more years. They could wait that long for him. They had to wait that long. There was no other option for them.

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Once he was out of sight, She went inside knowing she needed to talk to her parents about the decision they had made. They were still on the sofa in the living room. 

She watched them for a several seconds and couldn’t help smiling. They had been together for over 20 years now and they still acted like love starved teenagers. It had embarrassed her when she was younger, but now she couldn’t help wish that it could be that way for her and Cason.

Her mom looked up and saw her watching them. “Everything okay, darling?”

Kyndall gave a little shrug. “Can we talk?”

Campbell nodded as he frowned a little at his daughter. “What’s going on, Princess?”

She hated dropping this on them. Her father already had a pretty rotten day. His mother had called him that morning to tell him that his grandfather hadn’t woken up that morning. He had spent the day with his parents helping them plan the funeral.

“Are you okay, Daddy?”

He gave a little nod as he watched her sit down beside him. “I’m fine, Sweetheart. Your grandma and your aunt are taking it badly though.”

“I’ll go see Grandma tomorrow.” 

“She’ll like that. Maybe take Victoria over to see her?”

Kyndall nodded. “I need to talk to you two about Victoria actually.”

Abby frowned as she looked at her daughter. “Is she okay?”

Kyndall smiled and nodded. “She’s fine. It’s about something else.”

She told them about the decision that Cason and her had come to about Victoria and her future.

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Campbell listened to her then looked over at Abby. “Did I hear all of that correctly?”

Kyndall could see that he was getting upset. “Daddy, please. This is hard enough for both of us already.”

“For both of you? He is abandoning you and your daughter and you are letting him do it?” It was taking everything he had not to go after the kid right then.

She shook her head. “That’s not what is happening, Daddy. Cason isn’t abandoning us. He is finishing school. That is all. Once he is finished, he’ll be back.”

Campbell was still very skeptical about all of this. “You both are wanting your mother and I to take care of Victoria until he finishes school then just hand her over to a father who doesn’t care enough about her not to take care of her himself?”

“Daddy, please. He needs to finish school so he can take care her. The chances of me being here to see her grow up aren’t looking the best at the moment. Cason will be all she has and he is doing what he has to do to make sure she has the best future that he can give her.”

He saw the look in her father’s eyes and immediately regretted what she had said. “Daddy, I’m sorry.”

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He shook his head.”You are going to get better, Kyndall. You did once already. You can again.”

It wasn’t a conversation she was going to have with her dad at the time. He was already grieving his grandfather. She wasn’t going to make that worse for him.

“I’m getting tired. I’m going to go lay down until Victoria wakes up again.”

She hugged her dad tight. “I love you, Daddy.”