7:32 Didn’t We Almost Have It All

07-26-20_12-33-01 PM - CopyAbbey stood beside her daughter outside of the house. They had just left the dean’s office where Kyndall had withdrawn from the university and gotten the promise that she would be able to return in the future and pick up where she had left off with her studies. The only thing left was to collect her things from the house she had shared with Cason, Amira, and Bryan.

“You don’t have to do this, Sweetheart. You can wait in the car, and I can get your things for you.”

Kyndall knew her mother was trying to be helpfull and keep her from having to see Cason. After their last time together, she wasn’t sure how seeing him this time would be.

“It’s okay, Mom. I really want to see Amira and Bryan.”

Abbey wasn’t sure her going in there was a good idea, but she wasn’t going to stop her. She knew that her daughter was an adult now and able to make her own decisions…good or bad.

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Kyndall stopped at the door when she got a glance of Cason and their friends through the window. She felt her heart breaking knowing that they would be continuing their lives here on campus without her. That was not what they had planned. 

Abbey watched her daughter closely. She could see the tears starting to fill her eyes.

“Kyndall…”

“I’m okay.” She blinked a few times and took a deep breath. She could do this. She was a strong woman and could handle seeing her friends and packing her things.

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Cason looked up when the door opened. He looked a little surprised to see Kyndall and her mother. He shouldn’t have been though. He knew she would be coming at some point for her things. Amira had offered to take them to her on their next break, but Kyndall turned her offer down. Something about needing to talk to the people at the school anyway.

He looked down at the table. He was still ashamed of how he had acted the last time he had seen her. He knew that he had hurt her and that had never been his intention. He wanted to talk to her and try to explain, but he didn’t know how to start.

He saw the look of sadness on her face when she looked at him and felt even worse than he had before. He watched as she walked toward the stairs. He got up and followed behind her. He needed to talk to her and try to make things right between them. He knew he couldn’t take back the words he had already said, but maybe he could make her understand why he said them.

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He walked quietly into the bedroom that the two of them had shared. He watched her gather her things and set them ontop of the dresser. He sat down on the edge of the bed watching her for a moment.

“If I forget anything, can you mail it to me?”

He shook his head as he watched her. “I’ll bring it with me on my next trip home. It will give me an excuse to see you again.”

Kyndall closed her eyes not wanting to cry infront of him. “Don’t do this, Cason. I can’t right now.”

“Come sit with me for a minute. I want to talk to you.”

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Kyndall sat down beside him. If he was going to give her more reasons why she shouldn’t have their baby, she was going to leave and let her mother finish.

She was actually surprised when he reached out and took her hand in his. “Cason…”

“Just hear me out, please.” He waited until she stopped trying to take her hand from his. “First, I’m sorry. My reaction the other day was not how I truly feel, Kyndall.”

She shook her head and tried again to pull away from him. “First reactions are usually the most honest, Cason. You made yourself very clear.”

He tightened his hold on her hand a little so she couldn’t pull it away. “That is true, but not in this case. My first reaction was fear of losing you, Kyndall.”

She looked at him frowning when he said that. “You were afraid of losing me, so you broke up with me? That makes no sense, Cason.”

He shook his head. “I didn’t break up with you though.”

This time she did get her hand away from him and turned and looked at him. “You said that if I decide to have our baby, that we are over.”

He nodded and sighed. “I did, but…”

She put her hand up stopping him. “I guess we are over, Cason. I decided to have the baby.”

He was not surprised to hear that. He had actually expected it. He knew how much she loved children. “So are you breaking up with me then?”

She frowned as he said that. “You broke up with me…”

“No I didn’t.”

She sighed and shook her head. “I’m so confused. You said…”

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He leaned over and kissed her softly. “I love you.”

She was too surprised to say anything back to him. “Cason…”

He shook his head and looked at her. “I’m sorry, Kyndall. I don’t want to lose you.” He pulled her hand into his again. “I want to be here for you and our baby.”

She looked at him and could see that he was being honest with her. “Don’t ever do that to me, Cason.”

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He slid his arm around her and pulled her close. He kissed her forehead and smiled softly. “I love you, Kyndall. I do want to be here for you and the baby.”

She looked at him thinking about what he said. “I’m leaving school for awhile, Cason. The doctor wants me back home where I can do some of the treatments that are safe for the baby.”

He pulled back a bit looking at her. “Really? There are treatments that you are able to do?”

She nodded. “I had a long talk with the doctor a few days ago. We covered all sides and all of the possibilities. None of the options are a hundred percent. I decided to do what would be the best for both me and our baby. I have a treatment plan in place.  We’re going to use the baby safe stuff until he or she is born, then go hard and heavy with the other stuff afterwards.”

He was glad that she had a plan in place with her doctor. He kissed her forehead again. “I wish we didn’t have to make choices like this.”

She wasn’t going to point out that it was her who had made the choice, not him. She wasn’t in the mood for another fight with him. There were bigger issues to deal with at the moment. 

“I should start packing my things.”

She looked at him confused. “What do you mean?”

“I want to be with you through this, Kyndall. I can’t do that if I’m here and you aren’t.”

She shook her head. “Don’t leave school, Cason. It’s too important. You need to stay and finish.”

“I need to be with you and take care of you.”

She softly caressed his cheek and smiled. “My parents can do that, darling. You need to finish school. That is what me and the baby need most from you right now.”

He looked into her eyes then nodded. “Okay. I’m going to miss you being here.”

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He pulled himself away from her and stood up. “Come here. I have something for you.”

She looked at him questioning what he was doing but did as he asked. “What’s going on, Cason?”

“Turn around and keep your back towards me.”

She turned and did as he asked, hoping he would let her know what this was about soon. She heard him doing something in one of the desk drawers. She was tempted to see what he was doing, but didn’t.

“You can turn around.”

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Kyndall turned and saw Cason on his knee holding something out to her. “Cason…?”

He smiled as he looked up at her. “Marry me, Kyndall. It was something we have already talked about. We know it is going to happen someday. Just tell me now that you will. Once you are better, we’ll have that big wedding you always dreamed of having.”

She leaned down and kissed him softly. “I love you.”

“Is that a yes.”

“It is.”

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He stood up and kissed her softly. “Everything will be alright. I know it will be.”

She hoped he was right.


4 thoughts on “7:32 Didn’t We Almost Have It All

  1. I dont trust Cason at all after the way he reacted when he first heard about the baby, and now he just suddenly turns around and wants to marry her? Yeah no sorry I dont trust him

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