7:30 Didn’t Mean To Hurt You

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Kyndall had called Cason before stopping at the house to make sure he was awake. It was still early in the morning and she knew that he liked to sleep in when he did’t have a class to get to or a soccer practice. 

She saw the lights on, so knew he was awake. She smiled when she saw him at the door. 

“Good morning, beautiful. Come on in. I have fresh coffee if you want some.”

Kyndall shook her head. “Not today. I need to talk to you about something though.”

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Cason followed her inside to the sofa. He waited until she had sat down then took the seat beside her and kissed her softly. “You look tired.”

She gave a small smile and nodded. “I am. I haven’t been feeling the greatest.”

He frowned as he looked at her. “What’s wrong? Do you need to lay down? Can I get you some tea or toast?”

She smiled and shook her head. “I just want to sit here and talk right now.”

He nodded and took her hand in his. “Tell me what’s wrong, Kyndall.”

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Kyndall put her hand over Cason’s and leaned against him. “Do you remember when we were kids and I missed all that school?”

He nodded thinking about it. “You where sick with cancer or something, right?” His eyes got wide as a thought popped into his head. “Are you sick with it again? I thought you were healed from that.”

She nodded her head. “It is back. My parents and the doctor are pressuring me to start treatment as soon as possible.”

He frowned as he listened. Why wouldn’t she want to start treatment if that was what she needed to do to get better again. “Is there a reason you don’t want to?”

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She nodded then got nervous. They had never talked about having children so she wasn’t sure how he was going to react to the news. “There’s a little complication with me starting treatment. I’m pregnant.”

If she had expected him to be happy about it, she was disappointed. 

“Get rid of it, Kyndall. Do the treatment.”

She was a bit hurt by his words. “It’s our baby, Cason.”

07-07-20_5-33-38 PM

He hadn’t meant to upset her. He was scared. “Kyndall…”

She shook her head.  “Don’t, Caason. Don’t be like them.”

He tried to take her hand in his but she pulled away. “Kyndall, there are other reasons not to have this baby. We are both young. We are both in college. I want to be settled in my career before having kids.”

She understood all of that. Those were all great reasons. Reasons she had for herself also. “Cason, listen, please.”

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He nodded and sighed. He would listen to what she had to say, but it would take a lot for him to change his mind. He knew that his main reason for wanting her to end the pregnancy was to save herself. Nothing could change his mind away from that.

Once she knew that she had his attention, she closed her eyes and took a deep breath. “The fact that I am even pregnant to begin with is a miracle, Cason. It may never happen again. The stuff they pump into my body to kill the cancer also kills my chances to have children. This baby of ours somehow managed to overcome all of that from before and is growing inside of me. I never thought I would be a mother.”

“And if you have this baby, you still may not be, Kyndall.”

She felt like screaming at him to shut up. She had already heart that from her parents and the doctor. She didn’t want him to be saying it also. “I know that, Cason. I know. If it leads to that, then the baby will be a part of me for you and my family to still love.”

“If the baby survives.” He saw the look on her face and knew it wasn’t what she wanted to hear. “I’m sorry, Kyndall. It’s a possiblity that also has to be faced if this is what you plan to do. I’ll tell you right now though, if you choose this baby over yourself, we’re over. I cannot watch you die, Kyndall. I just can’t.”

4 thoughts on “7:30 Didn’t Mean To Hurt You

  1. I kind of understand Casons reasoning but I still despise him for giving Kyndall that ultimatum, terminate the pregnancy or lose him, no matter the reason that is just despicable to me and makes me feel like he doesnt trully love Kyndall

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