6:19 If Only

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It had been a few weeks since work on the youth center had begun. Andy decided to stop in at the site to see how things were going. He saw Campbell and smiled as he walked over to him.

“How are things going?”

Campbell looked over at his grandfather. “We hit a snag, but it’s been dealt with.”

“What happened?”

“The inspector was supposed to check the foundation yesterday, but was in an accident on the way. He was here this morning and checked it and everything it is back to work now. Only put us one day off schedule. Since I worked several days into the schedule to account for things like this, we are still okay.”

“Good. I checked in at the park before coming here. It looks really good over there.”

“Thanks. I’ve been trying to split my time between here, the park, and the office. I have great crews working at both sites which makes it easy for me to step back and let them do what they need to do.”

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Andy took a closer look at his grandson and saw something in his eyes that he hadn’t seen in awhile. “What’s wrong, Campbell? Don’t say nothing. I know you better than that.”

“I keep expecting Devin to come walking through.”

“I suspected as much. To be honest, I still do also when I’m at the sites.”

Campbell sighed and looked at his grandfather. “I still miss him so much. It’s been hard coming to the sites and knowing he won’t be here. We had so many plans to work on these projects together.” 

“I know. I looked forward to seeing the two of you working together on these.”

Campbell turned and walked toward the trailer. He knew it was empty at the moment and that he could talk to his grandfather in private.

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Andy followed him and locked the door once they were inside. He knew that Campbell wanted a private talk if he was coming in here. 

“Talk to me, Campbell. Tell me what is wrong.”

“I know it wasn’t my fault, but I blame myself for Devin’s death. If I had made him leave the party with me and Rita…if I had stayed with him…”

“He still would have had the overdose and died, Campbell. He had gone to the bathroom and did it there. That is why he was already gone when he was found. Nobody knew what he was doing in there until it was too late.”

“I know. I know it’s not my fault, but I can’t stop feeling guilt.” He looked at his grandfather. “I have talked to Dr. Brown about it. He says it’s a normal feeling. Survivor guilt or something like that.”

Andy had heard about that before. He had talked to Philip about it. “I think you and your dad should talk, Campbell. You could probably help each other out.”

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