Raelyn sent the kids home with her parents while she went with Zaiden. She was worried about him.
“Won’t your boyfriend be mad that you are here with me?”
Raelyn had no clue what he was talking about. “You were the only boyfriend I’ve ever had.”
“What about your dad’s guy that you’ve been dating?”
“I haven’t been dating anyone. Marco has been helping with the kids when we go somewhere. Grace is so much more of a handful than Owen ever was.”
Zaiden looked away when she started talking about the kids. “I wouldn’t know. I’m not allowed visits with them.” That one visit with his mother had been the only visit. The only other time he had seen his kids had been that afternoon at his parents’ funeral.
Raelyn felt bad about the way things had worked out. “That wasn’t my choice, Zaiden. That was the judge. I have always been fine with you seeing the kids. If it helps, they miss you.”
He looked at her like an alien had just flown out of her nose. “Explain to me how that is supposed to help. Is the fact that they miss me supposed to make everything perfect again? If it worked that way, you and the kids would be living here again and my parents wouldn’t be in the ground out there. If it worked that way, I wouldn’t be so damn alone.”
Raelyn covered his hand with hers. “You are not alone right now.”
Zaiden pulled his hand away from her and stood up. He moved to the window to put distance between them. “For how long? An hour or two? You’ll leave and go home to our kids and your parents. Then I will be alone again.”
He hadn’t known she had moved until he felt her arms wrap around him. He closed his eyes as his own arms held her close. He couldn’t stop the tears as all of the emotions of the past year came crashing down on him.
Raelyn held him tight. She knew he needed this. He always held his emotions inside. It was just a matter of time before this happened. She was just glad he wasn’t alone when it did.
When she started to calm down, she led him upstairs to the bedroom. She helped him get undressed then tucked him into the bed. “Sleep, Zaiden. I will stay in Owen’s room tonight.” She kissed him softly then got up.
He reached out and grabbed her hand. “Stay here. Please?”
She looked at him before climbing into bed with him. This felt so much like it used to feel. She looked into his eyes before she brushed a lock of his hair from his eyes. “I have missed you, Zaiden.”
“I have missed you too. I am sorry I fucked up so badly.”
“I am sorry that I didn’t give you the chance to make things right. I know you tried so hard to fix things. I am very proud of you.”
Zaiden felt the tears building in his eyes again. “I wish I had a time machine so I could go back and do things differently. Then I would still have you and the kids here with me.”
Raelyn put her finger over his lips. “I am here now and I am not going anywhere.” She replaced her finger with her lips and softly whispered against his lips. “Ever.”
Zaiden pulled back and looked at her. “Don’t say it if you don’t mean it. My heart can’t take any more.”
Raelyn looked into his eyes. “I mean it, Zaiden. I love you. I want to come home.”